As one life leaves another one begins...

The day is November 25th, 2011, time to bury my Father.  That morning I remember being in a panic, getting ready and then waiting on the limo.  They pick us up at our home and we move on the the National Cemetery and all I kept thinking about was anyone going to say anything about my Father before he goes into the ground?  I ask if anyone was scheduled to speak and they say no and I then asked if I could be brought up to say something and I was allowed to do just that.


I remember looking at everyone as I speak about my Father and it seemed as though I didn't even have to think about what I wanted to say the words just came out so freely and I remember the crowd looking on me as I held my tears back and finished what I had to say and I notice my youngest daughter was not there.  I take my seat and I start thinking why isn't she there?  This is her grandfather, where is she?  That little witch, I'm gonna choke her.  As we leave, we leave a rose on my Father's coffin and say good bye and I feel at peace knowing he is no longer in pain.


There was a little gathering and I asked my oldest daughter where her sister was she said she didn't know.  I could tell she knew something but did not tell me.  To be honest I am surprised she made it because she has been using for at least 10 years at this point.  The day is finally over and I remember crying myself to sleep over loosing my Father and my daughter not coming to his funeral.


Okay, its now time for me to start working on myself...yeah, right!!!  My daughter had no mercy on me at all, I had no clue still at this time how bad she is on the heroin, she asks for money but she always paid me back until that December, needed the money for Christmas she said, okay I'll get it next month.  Well time goes on until her birthday in June of 2012 and I told her to keep it as a birthday present.  She didn't like that to much.  As time goes by she gets into trouble and lies about her purse being stolen out of her car in a parking lot.  Come to find out she lied and they got her for filing a false report.  She then gets into trouble for stealing, she gets tickets for speeding and all other types of things in 5 different cities.  She still keeps stealing and her license is revoked but her Father is such a block head he just believes everything she says and keeps giving her money to pay tickets and money for lawyers and money for her medications and all of it went on heroin and he gets mad at me because I will not give him any money to go towards anything, you fool you keep giving her the money and you expect me to give you money, what a fool.

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